amy-sama909

Wow, I haven't been on this account since 2013. Well, there is a reason for that. My laptop broke, lost wifi when my family moved. My tablet also quit working so I had no way of access to here. Last year I got a kindle and have been using it for two of my accounts: (mainly this one)  I plan to download some more browsers (Silk sucks) and use them to access all of my accounts. Except for one. Which I plan on having someone hack for me to change my email to a new one since the old one got deleted by my mom. I had been using hers and now I don't remember the password and so can't change the password. I have the password written down but I can't find the paper. Unless by some miracle I remember the darn password, I'll look for a hacker.
So, yeah, that's what's up with me. I have changed a lot so if I seem like a completely different person, that's because I am. Shit went down during my time away and I've matured because of it. Let's see...I'll do some activity here before I get off and onto my other accounts to alert the watchers there about the changes. I may post some more things when I get new browsers. That way my watchers aren't watching a inactive account anymore.

just saying hi! lol and i love you guys!

I created a community on facebook just moments ago. It's called Don't Give Up. It's a community dedicated to stopping suicide. I request an avatar for it. I can't fully make this community worth carrying out its goal alone. I need as much help as I can get. Thank you!

Okay, this is out of the blue but I've been thinking about suicide lately whilst going through an old youtube playlist of mine from a while back.
Anyway, I'll get straight to the point. I myself am suicidal and suffer depression but I stay alive because I have someone to live for now.
I was thinking back and playing different scenarios in my head. I realized that there are a few people in my family who do care about me. My grandmother, my grandfather and my little young uncle. They would be the ones to cry over me along with my friends. The thought of making them sad made me cry. The thought of their love for me made cry. I realized I didn't want to leave them. I wanted to live with them and for them. My now lover stopped me from committing suicide in may. I had been broken by my stepfather saying I was worthless, useless. Saying I wouldn't make it in the world. Saying I was stupid and pathetic and making fun of me for my horrible grades. (yes, i'm still in high school. 18 and doing better in senior year. was always too busy talking to my friends. they made and make me happy.) My mom and siblings didn't say anything. They walked away. I didn't say anything either and just let him continue to say horrible things.
I'm hated for being myself. I'm hated for loving anime. I'm hated for not being particularly fond of dogs. I'm hated for loving cats. I'm hated for wanting to play video games. I'm hated for wanting to be with my friends all the time. I'm hated for wanting to talk to them all the time. I'm made fun of for crying in front of them. I can't cry anymore. I've forgotten how to. I can't smile anymore around them. It's always forced. I can't laugh. I can't sing. I can't do what I want. I can't watch movies I want to watch.
Lately I've been crying, after ages, about how pathetic I am. I've come to hate myself and love the world. I've come to accept all cultures, all religions, and everyone around me. I can't accept my family though.
I don't know how to make friends. I'm scared to.
It took all I had to confess my love to my lover. She's everything to me. Yes, I'm bi.
I'm made fun of for being with a girl by my siblings and stepfather. Mom doesn't really care. She'd rather me be with a man though. She said bluntly. She said: do you still like guys? yes, I do but I love her more.
Enough of that.
Suicide is horrible. Even if it seems like a way out of a hellish life, don't give up. Someone's waiting to be there for you. You just have to let them know how you feel.
If you see someone sitting alone, talk to them. Hang out with them. Be their friend.
If you see someone being bullied, fight for them. Don't walk away.
If you know someone doing drugs, find out why. Help them quit.
If you know someone who smokes, help them quit.
If you know someone who cuts themselves, talk to them. Find out why and help them recover.
Don't be heartless. You can be a hero and save a life.
Heros are made when you make a choice.
Suicide is scary. Especially when it's someone you're close to or someone you bullied.
Suicide changes everyone who knew the passed person.
I know myself how scary it is. I lost my cousin to it. My friend's mother committed suicide and I knew his pain because she was such a great person. She seemed so happy. I still miss her today.
I'm trying to say that you need to help fight against suicide. I've tried to many times myself but the thought of my friends always stops me.
If it hadn't been for Morgan calling that day after I emailed her what my stepfather said, I would've been dead from overdose of painkillers.
My friend Christina is also another reason why I'm still here. I thank her for always being there for me when I'm down. I thank all my friends. I love you guys, including everyone here on DA. I think about you guys and how I want to become a great artist one day. I end up thinking about all the dreams I'll be destroying that I have.
Please, help stop suicide. Save a life.
Here is a video of a girl who wishes for the same changes.
youtu.be/5uvFMGh4_Ag
her words say a lot more.

Jake Kin is the orginial character belonging to She loves the reviews by everyone and decided to finally post it on four accounts so that it has a better chance of being read. lol she loves to be noticed. anyway, i present to you introductory and chapter one. Enjoy!